1406: Phony Fish Expert

there are a lot of theories about envy

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Have you ever heard someone complaining about the game 'Rock, Paper, Scissors' ? 'There is no way that the paper could Beat the rock.' - 'Yes there is, though, the paper would cover it.' Some people say that the Rock could beat everything, or traditionally people will accept the idea of an overlapping threesome . . . only the debate is usually about the Rock and where the Rock is going to fit in, even though the three are obviously connected somehow and it is only a matter of how

going off what I have read, heard, seen & noticed,
envy is kind of similar

It obviously has some weird triangular relationship with love and hate, some people coming out & saying 'Envy is an even mix of the two,' 'Envy is stronger than either one,' 'Envy is love that hates,' or 'hate that loves' or something like that. I dunno. Everybody wants their quotation about envy to get on an internet page, and I guess I won't be able to say which one is right. Only love & Hate usually get involved there. Like there's an obvious symbiosis . . . or something?

anyway
I bet they're right. I don't know. I will only tell you this. I pressed a few buttons a while ago, deliberately put my name in the thick of a subject, you know? a small subject, I am sure, a subject you would not even notice later. Only it was a weird motivation, And I guess it's one we've seen for thousands of years. so Why did I do it? why did I involve myself? not because I wanted 'to be loved' as most stories go, not because I wanted someone to look at me & like it. No I did it because I wanted to be envied, just a little bit of envy somewhere; please? And it was a very small subject, and I know it didn't work. And I know it wasn't expected to, Only, well, that was the idea

I am sure they are related somehow
and we've all seen the dumb chart with millions of Rock Paper Scissors choices
so don't even. lol

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Hi. How are you?
I know what my emotions are saying; I know it is easy to feel under-appreciated. I know what it feels like, & it feels like this: I gave you a couple hundred dollars, and I got a few pennies back from you. That is what I feel inside, that is without even trying. Only what is really fair? how do I Look at this? Picture a guy who gives away big sacks of money and stuff, a guy who takes all of his paychecks, cashes them, & then gives all the cash to the panhandlers. He could easily begin complaining, talking about how there was no balance. 'I gave them a McBillion dollars & they did not give me anything.' Well you're right that isn't balanced, & that's the way you are going to feel. Only doesn't it kind of follow logically, shouldn't you Expect to get nothing if you give away all your paychecks?

so is it really unfair? is there really a lack of appreciation? some kind of deficit that I should be all sore about? Well who knows, maybe not. Yea I got less, and I got my Less from giving Lots, and yea there is a little vacuum there. Only was I supposed to know that? am I the sucker for trying? Would it have been wiser to invest in bonds and banks and all that dumb stuff, to lean out for you only every once in a while, to put together some savings and then get the dumb little nest egg of respect?

well. Maybe.
the problem is, I can't really say 'Lesson learned'
Odds are I'll say 'Lesson considered,'
and then I'll fail the next quiz

Bill Out~